Monday, April 19, 2010

Alls I need is some GRACE!

i need to learn how to ask for extensions.
instead, at the very last minute, at the 11th hour, i email saying that my exam will be late.
this, i know, is a fault that must be corrected.

anyhow, in my defense, i am still learning.
she, on the other hand, should know what struggling grad students are like by now, right??

her response to my last minute email of needing more time:

"it's your own deadline, so do it."

i was foolishly hoping for something like:

"sounds like you need more time. take the weekend to work on it & email it to me by Monday morning."

i can't wait to be done w/her.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

politics & power dynamics

anger is necessary & sometimes an appropriate response to a demoralizing situation.

but it sure is draining, too.

i am feeling quite depleted.
and the worst part is--it's too risky, probably even naive & careless, to voice some of this anger to the person who is causing it.

politics & power dynamics of the advisor-advisee relationship make a body...depleted.